I question whether it's possible to be more bored than I am now outside of the MidWest. Specifically Nebraska. Would surprise me.

School seems to be going well and I've started using Rosetta Stone quite a bit since I have the time now. The website is progressing along nicely. Now if only I could forget that I'm in the asshole of nowhere(better known as Nebraska)life would be going along pretty nicely.

Goddamn I'm awesome. That's all :)

Ghosts by Ladytron

Everyday I struggle to keep my sanity. Sometimes I'd love to see the world burning around me. People screaming and the smell of smoke would remind me that the world isn't always boring. Sometimes I simply would love to be in total darkness listening to music for eternity. No country though. Sometimes I'd just love to travel. Never being anywhere more than a week. Sometimes I'd like to talk to someone with similiar interest. But that person doesn't exist. Sometimes I'd like to fall asleep only to wake up just before death to say "Goodbye world. It sucked being here.". And sometimes I can't think of what else to say so that's it for today.

Set 1

1. The Retrosic - "Total War"
2. Oneiroid Psychosis - "Dark Day"
3. Switchblade Symphony - "Dissolve"
4. Diatribe - "Advanced Therapy"
5. Rob Zombie (remix by Rammstein) - "Spookshow Baby"
6. The Crystal Method & Filter - "Can't You Trip Like I Do"
7. Snake River Conspiracy - "Coke & Vaseline"
8. Meg Lee Chin - "And God She Created Civilization"
9. Chemlab - "Codeine, Glue, And You"
10. Icon Of Coil - "Everything Is Real?"
11. ohGr - "HiLo"
12. Killing Joke - "Drug"
13. Razed in Black - "Assimilate"


Set 2

1. Hanzel Und Gretyl - "55 Deathstar Supergalactic"
2. Das Ich - "Der Schrei (The Ancient Gallery Remix)"
3. Rammstein - "Du Hast"
4. Laibach - "Das Spiel Ist Aus"
5. God Lives Underwater - "From Your Mouth"
6. And One - "Military Fashion Show"
7. H311b3nt - "Chromed"
8. Gary Numan - "Dark"
9. Revolting Cocks - "Da Ya Think I'm Sexy?"
10. KMFDM - "Anarchy [God and the State Mix]"
11. Blutengel - "Bloody Pleasures"
12. Newlydeads - "Cities In Dust"
13. :wumpscut: - "Maiden"
14. The Ancient Gallery - "alles"

hahahahahaha

Must be really bored.....

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Yay I'm back. Ahhh, the convenience of 24hr stores again. Awesome. There were a lot of interesting situations on this journey. I'll go into more detail later on when I'm not so tired.

Well, I'm of to europe. This trip has taken to long to come. I can't wait to land there. Wish I could go longer than 2 weeks. I'll be posting pics as I can.

So bored so very bored
Hang myself with a cord
Killing time is killing me
Repetition is all I see
Something different is all I ask
This should be a simple task
But no it can't be that way
Or else I might have a happy day
People wonder why I don't care
Cause something different is mighty rare
What I hear is what I've heard
The passing cars the mouthy birds
I'm writing this little rhyme
Mostly to pass up time
But also because I have nothing to do
Except sit here and think how to bother you

The End............still bored........................

Seems I must get rid of my cat. He has recently started to attack me when my cell phone rings(I'm not joking). I hardly talk on my phone is the weird part. I play with him all the time . But even when your petting him he tends to lash out at you eventually then wants to be petted again. I think he is mental. He attacked me when my phone rang this morning. Oh what a feeling it is to wake up to a answer a phone call and before you even touch the phone a cat bloodied up your arm after running into your room and just going psycho on you. I don't know whats wrong with him but I can't deal with it. And I don't want him going psycho on anyone coming to my house. Hopefully I can find a "No Kill" shelter for him. If not, I'll have no choice but to take him to a regular shelter.

Because of Rovvis

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal.
3. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4.You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someoneelse in the post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1) Who would win in a fight Ichigo or Naruto? Ichigo. Because I like Ichigo more right now and he always has his buddies in tow.

2) What are yout top 5 albums of all time? That's a tough one. I'll go with these.

1. Pandemonium by Killing Joke
2. Low End Theory by A Tribe Called Quest
3. Uber Alles by Hanzel und Gretyl
4. Juju by Siouxsie and the Banshees
5. Protection by Massive Attack

3) Your apartment is burning down, you only have time to save one thing, What is it and why?
My computer. It has nearly my whole collection(almost 3000 CD's) ripped on to it. So I'd at least have it if nothing else.

4) Who is the Sexiest Anime, Comic or Cartoon Character?
Excel Excel. Apparently I have a thing for crazy and eccentric women :)

5) Would you rather find true love or be a millionare? Why? Be a millionaire. I don't believe in true love and even if I did the million would last longer.

Its been really busy lately. I've gotten a 2nd apt. with Josh. Went to see Thrill Kill Kult. Went to Orlando to watch a group with Taro and Jennifer at Megacon. The band was good but Megacon blew. Then got to see Sister's of Mercy. That was the worst concert I've been to ever. Will never see them again. But Birthday Massacre is next week so it will kinda make up for it.

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. I've always had the fact that I'm mixed floating in the back of my mind. Been trying to get rid of that line of thinking. Hard to do when you are constantly reminded of it though. Also been trying to avoid any drama not actually involving me. Seems some people though seem not to have an ability to use me as a tool for making attacks on others. Really pissing me off. You know who you are. I advise you stop. You don't want me as an enemy. You really don't. Also have been trying to finish various projects I've been working on over the years. Hard to stay focused cause i get bored eventually when it gets to mundane parts. I've been doing much better and now am busy a lot of the time.

Thats all I'm Writing right now. I'm tired.

This is a repost of a repost from Rovvis .

Hate to say it, at times I've agreed with this as well(excluding MY female friends of course).

Taken from www.outpostnine.com because I agree with this completely.

Death of a Nice Guy
By: Azrael

Women are always saying how they want a nice guysomeone who will open up to them, spend time with them, do nice things for them, in general, be there for them.

Bullshit.

Next time I hear that from a woman, I will say exactly that. Bullshit. Because you don't want the nice guys. Sure, you can say you do all you want, and maybe you can trick yourself into believing it too. But the truth is - you want the jerks. You want the guys who show an interest in you, then back off for no apparent reason. You want the guys who don't call you for two weeks, and when they do they swear up and down they're committed to you. You want the ones who don't talk to you, don't open up at all (and you want to change them to boot!) If you do find a nice guy, you make sure he's unattainable. He has a girlfriend, or he's gay, or he doesn't want a relationship at all. Basically, you want what you can't have.

You know how I know this? I used to be a nice guy. Yeah, I'm the one you always come running to when the jerks screw you over. I listen to your problems, I offer advice. Like all nice guys before me, and the countless ones after, I'm always there to back you up. I tell you how pretty you are. I tell you how fun it is to spend time with you, how cool you are, how you deserve great things. You say thanks, briefly, and then continue to rant about Jerk ..2873.

I tell you over and over that you deserve a better guy, and there's always that "but". Then you call me up at 1 in the morning some night just to tell me how he finally called you after two weeks, and how happy it's made you. You make excuses for why he's been ignoring you. You make more plans to change him. "If." And, do you know what the worst part is? This is the guy you're attracted to. This is the guy you're willing to get physical with. This is the guy you're willing to lose your virginity to. You make a big deal about how you're not a slut, and you won't just kiss any guy. But you admit that you would go all the way with this guy. Or you want to. Or, you already have.

No, you don't want a nice guy. And don't give me that bullshit about "a good man is hard to find." There are millions of them out there. Probably hundreds around where you live. And I'm willing to bet you know a few. You know that guy you call at any hour at night to talk about your relationship triumphs/problems? The one who always compliments you, makes you feel better about yourself? Is always willing to drop whatever he's doing to satisfy your needs?

What about him? No, of course not him. He's not enough of a jerk for you.

And the worst part? You don't want him nowbut you will. When you get older, oh, say 30, and the ticking of your biological clock gets louder and louder, and you realize you can't play these bullshit games anymore, you stop going for the jerks and find the closest nice guy you can find. Wait, I take that back, the absolute worst part is that we let you do it. We've been starved for your attention since puberty, and now we're all too happy to get it. We're nice guys too, so we accept you when you come around, instead of giving you the cold shoulder in return you've been giving us for 15 years.

I used to be a nice guy. Fuck that. I took the phone calls, I dished out the compliments, I listened, I gave so much advice, shit, I should have a doctorate in psychology conferred to me right this instant. I used to be a nice guy, and I figured that I didn't need to actively look for a girl - that if I just got to know people, some girl would get to know me and really like me and develop an interest in me. I thought that I would make for an ideal partner, I'd open up with you, and be there as much or as little as you wanted me to.

I used to be a nice guy. What did that get me? 21 years of my right hand and softcore porn on Showtime. So, fuck it. Fuck it entirely. I'm not going to try to meet women and get to know them, and to hell with the phone calls at one in the morning. Next time you start bitching to me over the fact that he hasn't called in a week, I'm just going to smile at you and say "Ok." In fact, maybe, I'll tell you to call him. Better yet, go over to his house, and drop your pants for him right this moment. Save us all some time. I feel the desire to be that good, dependable, caring friend slipping rapidly away.

And I like that.

You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.

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Words added by myself


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Well, it been 4 days since New Years Eve. Me and her have still not had our talk. I'm just waiting for her to contact me. I've no idea how the conversations going to go at all.We've been friends for so long. I guess I'll hear what she has to say and go from there. I'll assume after 2 weeks the talk isn't going to happen. Hopefully it doesn't come to that. At least I'm past the "Pissed Off" phase. Now I'm just kinda blah and want to get this situation to a conclusion. I do ask that all my friends treat her like you would have before New Years Eve. Your personal relationships with her should be no different no matter how my personal relationship with her turns out. I don't choose my friends' friends. They certainly don't choose mine. Well, thats all I have to say right now. Maybe I'll have some positive news later.

Well the year couldn't have start off worse unless my nuts had suddenly fallen off. I will be far more aloof than I normally am until midfeb. I really don't want to talk about the situation other than I will no longer even try to to go after anyone again. I'm done. That's it. The last 3 girls have all done the exact same thing to me and I don't deserve it. I'm not going to say anything negative about the people as it would help nothing. I'd like to sleep but I'm still too pissed.